Tuesday, June 28, 2005
I've been reloading the blogger page many times.
I got something to rant about, but I don't know what it is.
I feel _____.
I don't even know what I feel, which explains the blank.
I don't know, maybe I'm feeling empty.
I've got a question for all my friends.
Who am I to you?
I've been thinking about this with regards to people I know.
I realise that close friends only narrow down to a few. I think.
It seems the people on my so called priority list have become rather distant.
With them at a distant, I can see myself in a dark room, with only a spot of light shining down on me.
I don't even know who are on my priority list anymore.
And whose priority list am I on. Maybe none, which I wouldn't be surprised about.
Thanks to Wendy for sending 'Fix You' by Coldplay.
You're right, it's really beautiful.
Fix You - Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all of my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
I got something to rant about, but I don't know what it is.
I feel _____.
I don't even know what I feel, which explains the blank.
I don't know, maybe I'm feeling empty.
I've got a question for all my friends.
Who am I to you?
I've been thinking about this with regards to people I know.
I realise that close friends only narrow down to a few. I think.
It seems the people on my so called priority list have become rather distant.
With them at a distant, I can see myself in a dark room, with only a spot of light shining down on me.
I don't even know who are on my priority list anymore.
And whose priority list am I on. Maybe none, which I wouldn't be surprised about.
Thanks to Wendy for sending 'Fix You' by Coldplay.
You're right, it's really beautiful.
Fix You - Coldplay
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try and fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from all of my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
Friday, June 24, 2005
The Padres - November '91
Tonight you'll see another face
Another broken gaze
By the light that barely burns on
She's helm by electric wire
Deliver a crying baby
Naive so what you'll bring her
Home wherever she wants to
November ninety one
I thought it'd rain forever
Forever
Did you see her
Did she steal your heart by chance
I'd like to know your crime
When you hear your heartbeat
Slipping bit by bit
Goodnight
She floats across the dancehall
Towards that exit door
She's wasting every moment
Tonight you'll see another face
Another broken gaze
By the light that barely burns on
She's helm by electric wire
Deliver a crying baby
Naive so what you'll bring her
Home wherever she wants to
November ninety one
I thought it'd rain forever
Forever
Did you see her
Did she steal your heart by chance
I'd like to know your crime
When you hear your heartbeat
Slipping bit by bit
Goodnight
She floats across the dancehall
Towards that exit door
She's wasting every moment
It's been some time since I last took their CD out and planted it into my antique Discman.
It's nostalgia I tell you, listening to something from the past, on something from the past.
November '91.
I'm so hooked to the song now, it's on repeat ALL THE TIME.
Even now.
From home to school, being on repeat, it plays about 7 to 8 times before I get into class.
Unbelievable.
Padres Night, definately a gem worth keeping, or rather, buying, if you haven't gotten it yet.
I feel weird.
I watched 'A Lot Like Love' yesterday with Rachel.
It was super imprompto as I actually wanted to catch it alone, knowing that everyone was busy.
She just poped up on msn, and I actually dragged her, or conned her, into watching it with me.
For those of you who watched it, despite it being quite bad, you might take it as a happy hollywood ending.
But I think it's damn bloody sad.
It took them 7 bloody long years before realising that they're meant for one another.
3, 4 year, I'm fine. 5 years, probably I still can accept.
7 years? And we don't even know if they kept in contact in between!
I was kinda angsty in the mid of the show, I would have thrown popcorn if I had any.
I should have grabbed Rachel's box of mentos instead.
Why is it that two people don't get together despite them having feelings for each other?
How confusing can that be?
So, for those who hate time-lines, people taking forever before regretting not being together, and bad singing from ashton kutcher, don't watch the show.
Period.
It's nostalgia I tell you, listening to something from the past, on something from the past.
November '91.
I'm so hooked to the song now, it's on repeat ALL THE TIME.
Even now.
From home to school, being on repeat, it plays about 7 to 8 times before I get into class.
Unbelievable.
Padres Night, definately a gem worth keeping, or rather, buying, if you haven't gotten it yet.
I feel weird.
I watched 'A Lot Like Love' yesterday with Rachel.
It was super imprompto as I actually wanted to catch it alone, knowing that everyone was busy.
She just poped up on msn, and I actually dragged her, or conned her, into watching it with me.
For those of you who watched it, despite it being quite bad, you might take it as a happy hollywood ending.
But I think it's damn bloody sad.
It took them 7 bloody long years before realising that they're meant for one another.
3, 4 year, I'm fine. 5 years, probably I still can accept.
7 years? And we don't even know if they kept in contact in between!
I was kinda angsty in the mid of the show, I would have thrown popcorn if I had any.
I should have grabbed Rachel's box of mentos instead.
Why is it that two people don't get together despite them having feelings for each other?
How confusing can that be?
So, for those who hate time-lines, people taking forever before regretting not being together, and bad singing from ashton kutcher, don't watch the show.
Period.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Loneliness.
I hate it whenever I grab the attention of my old friend.
I have often told people that I can always watch a movie alone.
Yes, there's some truth in that fact. SOME.
Over the years, I've come to realise that I enjoy company.
I can't do things alone.
I so badly want to watch a movie today, but I can't find anyone else.
And my people priority list are all activity filled.
I had no choice but to go home.
I'm not in a mood to go catch Starwars (YES. I haven't watch yet) or Batman alone.
The moment I got home after failing to get company for either movie, I was welcomed by stale warm air from a dark gloomy home that was left empty the whole day.
How inviting is that?
Thank God for drinking buds.
Got recall from Dragon.
Will be going down for a short drink soon.
At least E never fails to make me laugh with his rubbish.
Sigh.
I hate it whenever I grab the attention of my old friend.
I have often told people that I can always watch a movie alone.
Yes, there's some truth in that fact. SOME.
Over the years, I've come to realise that I enjoy company.
I can't do things alone.
I so badly want to watch a movie today, but I can't find anyone else.
And my people priority list are all activity filled.
I had no choice but to go home.
I'm not in a mood to go catch Starwars (YES. I haven't watch yet) or Batman alone.
The moment I got home after failing to get company for either movie, I was welcomed by stale warm air from a dark gloomy home that was left empty the whole day.
How inviting is that?
Thank God for drinking buds.
Got recall from Dragon.
Will be going down for a short drink soon.
At least E never fails to make me laugh with his rubbish.
Sigh.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Alright!
At last bootcamp is over!
2 days of shooting is tiring, and they're not even 12hr or 16hr days.
I guess its because of the rush and the fact that I run more than when I was a PA.
But I'm so loving this feeling even though there's fatigue.
It's been some time since I've been on a shoot and I really enjoy getting this feeling again.
I already can't wait to shoot Narrative A, which would be a longer short at 10 - 15mins in 4 days(bootcamp short is 3mins in 4hrs).
Watched Bertrend Lee's shorts in school with M and director.
He is such a talent filled young director, and it's so sad to see him in such a plight.
I've always wanted to watch 'Birthday' some time back but actually missed the timing for the screening.
It is a fantastic short.
So real, it kinda pinches you.
The acting was wonderful.
So, if any of you out there intend to watch it, and to aid Bertrend in his recovery, you can actually still catch his two shorts, 'Trishaw', and 'Birthday' at GV Grand I THINK on the 7th July.
www.sfs.org.sg for more information and to confirm that it's on the 7th July.
Everytime I watch such good films by local filmmakers, I will always have this thought in my mind. "Gee, when will I ever do something that fantastic?"
My thought is now closer to confirmation after shooting in school for bootcamp.
As the assigned dop, I was kinda lost, and couldn't bring out all the crap that I have from watching films, like "that should have been darker!", "The colours should have more contrast!", "The shot is too warm/cold!".
I am only a noise maker.
When it came to the real thing, I just stone.
Sigh.
"Gee, when will I ever do something that fantastic?"
Thought of the day, and most days - "Why do I always think so much?"
At last bootcamp is over!
2 days of shooting is tiring, and they're not even 12hr or 16hr days.
I guess its because of the rush and the fact that I run more than when I was a PA.
But I'm so loving this feeling even though there's fatigue.
It's been some time since I've been on a shoot and I really enjoy getting this feeling again.
I already can't wait to shoot Narrative A, which would be a longer short at 10 - 15mins in 4 days(bootcamp short is 3mins in 4hrs).
Watched Bertrend Lee's shorts in school with M and director.
He is such a talent filled young director, and it's so sad to see him in such a plight.
I've always wanted to watch 'Birthday' some time back but actually missed the timing for the screening.
It is a fantastic short.
So real, it kinda pinches you.
The acting was wonderful.
So, if any of you out there intend to watch it, and to aid Bertrend in his recovery, you can actually still catch his two shorts, 'Trishaw', and 'Birthday' at GV Grand I THINK on the 7th July.
www.sfs.org.sg for more information and to confirm that it's on the 7th July.
Everytime I watch such good films by local filmmakers, I will always have this thought in my mind. "Gee, when will I ever do something that fantastic?"
My thought is now closer to confirmation after shooting in school for bootcamp.
As the assigned dop, I was kinda lost, and couldn't bring out all the crap that I have from watching films, like "that should have been darker!", "The colours should have more contrast!", "The shot is too warm/cold!".
I am only a noise maker.
When it came to the real thing, I just stone.
Sigh.
"Gee, when will I ever do something that fantastic?"
Thought of the day, and most days - "Why do I always think so much?"
Monday, June 13, 2005
I'm excited over the fact that we're shooting end this week.
Though the script is rather thin, the thought of actually having the ability to decide what I want in a frame excites me so much.
The thought of how I want the person's face to look with contrast and brightness thrills me.
But one thing that I'm so concerned with is time, and how I'm going to manage it.
I've got screenings I'm gonna miss.
I've got people I'm gonna miss.
I've got activities I'm gonna miss.
For example, this week.
I'm missing FREE screenings of Batman Begins and Unleashed, and probably 2nd Singapore Shortcuts this Saturday because of school related activities.
I'm gonna miss Observatory in town.
I'm gonna give work a miss, which means no income.
I'm gonna give football a miss, which means no exercise or brotherly bonding.
All in the name of love.
Sigh.
I'm going to TRY quitting smoking.
I decided to do it yesterday after reading something the night before.
But yesterday, I actually had one stick, which I guess was due to alcoholic influence.
Today, breaks during lessons made me follow a fellow classmate out for a puff as he offered.
Damn, I gotta work on my discipline.
I mustn't yield to temptation.
Finally there's something else I want the world to know about me.
If I have something to tell you, I will.
No matter how much you ask me, I wouldn't tell if it's personal.
If I don't intend to tell you, STOP GUESSING. STOP PROBING.
It's bloody irritating.
I've got 2 parents, I don't need another.
And parents have a higher priority as compared to you.
Yes, you might be concerned, I appreciate it.
A simple, 'hope all's well' or 'all the best' would be great.
After that, stop it.
I'm not a nice person, I'm mean.
Just too bad.
Though the script is rather thin, the thought of actually having the ability to decide what I want in a frame excites me so much.
The thought of how I want the person's face to look with contrast and brightness thrills me.
But one thing that I'm so concerned with is time, and how I'm going to manage it.
I've got screenings I'm gonna miss.
I've got people I'm gonna miss.
I've got activities I'm gonna miss.
For example, this week.
I'm missing FREE screenings of Batman Begins and Unleashed, and probably 2nd Singapore Shortcuts this Saturday because of school related activities.
I'm gonna miss Observatory in town.
I'm gonna give work a miss, which means no income.
I'm gonna give football a miss, which means no exercise or brotherly bonding.
All in the name of love.
Sigh.
I'm going to TRY quitting smoking.
I decided to do it yesterday after reading something the night before.
But yesterday, I actually had one stick, which I guess was due to alcoholic influence.
Today, breaks during lessons made me follow a fellow classmate out for a puff as he offered.
Damn, I gotta work on my discipline.
I mustn't yield to temptation.
Finally there's something else I want the world to know about me.
If I have something to tell you, I will.
No matter how much you ask me, I wouldn't tell if it's personal.
If I don't intend to tell you, STOP GUESSING. STOP PROBING.
It's bloody irritating.
I've got 2 parents, I don't need another.
And parents have a higher priority as compared to you.
Yes, you might be concerned, I appreciate it.
A simple, 'hope all's well' or 'all the best' would be great.
After that, stop it.
I'm not a nice person, I'm mean.
Just too bad.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Just read the lyrics.
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Humpback Oak - Circling Square
I don't see the need to classify her
I've decided that she is everything I need
There really is no need to classify her
I'll never hurt her 'cos she can be so good to me
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
I don't see the need to complicate her thoughts and actions and these
I love her the way she is
I love to see her smile
She's so lovely
Even when I'm bleeding I dream of satisfying her needs
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
Things that make me smile (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone now
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
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Humpback Oak - Circling Square
I don't see the need to classify her
I've decided that she is everything I need
There really is no need to classify her
I'll never hurt her 'cos she can be so good to me
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
I don't see the need to complicate her thoughts and actions and these
I love her the way she is
I love to see her smile
She's so lovely
Even when I'm bleeding I dream of satisfying her needs
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
Things that make me smile (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone with me (It makes me smile)
And I'm alone and she's alone now
Wait and see
I'll wait and see till she sends for me
Sends for me
Oh honey when you send for me
I'll be there for you anywhere
Circling square
Thursday, June 02, 2005
I will be so so busy.
But I'm enjoying everything so far.
School has been great.
It really feels so god damn good when you're doing something you love.
Or when you're doing something for someone you love (it applies to friends, family whatever too).
With this entry, I will be missing for sometime soon.
I wouldn't be dead.
It just so happens that my school schedule will be so tight, sleep will be a privilege.
All in the name of love.
I love film.
So here's goodbye my friends.
See you all soon.
I'll end off with this line from a song someone sent me.
It sort of startled me a bit.
'If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad
If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?'
- Sheryl Crow
But I'm enjoying everything so far.
School has been great.
It really feels so god damn good when you're doing something you love.
Or when you're doing something for someone you love (it applies to friends, family whatever too).
With this entry, I will be missing for sometime soon.
I wouldn't be dead.
It just so happens that my school schedule will be so tight, sleep will be a privilege.
All in the name of love.
I love film.
So here's goodbye my friends.
See you all soon.
I'll end off with this line from a song someone sent me.
It sort of startled me a bit.
'If it makes you happy, it can't be that bad
If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?'
- Sheryl Crow
