wasted mind, wasted thoughts

The month of March has been a pleasant month for me. Had sufficient work to make me worry less about my financial status, been loving the girl more, and had lots of fun and drink.
I intend to cut down on the drink. It takes up lots of cash and it eats on my health. I go to work feeling like shit when I had a heavy night before. You just can't really focus well. But, the company is perfect, and I'll never get sick of them. My pool has improved, and I want to be Lot Stock's no.1 hustler of the table! The feeling of beating a player is so good, you just want more strangers to putting 2 coins into the slot for a challange.
My belly is getting bigger(as usual) due to the drinking. I still can see my toes, but its getting worrying. The girl doesn't mind, but I do!
I've been dating the girl for nearly 1 year now. I am very very happy and glad that it still feels like when we first started dating. I still do love her very much, and am very glad its her. If I won Toto now, I wouldn't mind marrying her too. I think. But I don't like thinking about it as I still like my youth, and marriage would just add responsibilities which I feel I'm not ready for YET.
But, girl if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU!
eeek. So mushy.