wasted mind, wasted thoughts

At last I had the chance to go to a big scale musical thanks to the girl. She got tickets for us to watch the Phantom's last appearance in Singapore (I think). But the thing is, I don't understand some logic at how sistic charge for the seats at the Esplanade theatre. We got the very last row in the whole theatre, and it costs us the 2nd most expensive price. The most ex is $160, and the cheapest is $40. We got the $120 tickets. Its a bit bizzare right? The stage was really far and it was really difficult to catch the performance in its full glory. The last row! Why??? Anyway, the performance was ace, and I really loved how the sets changed quickly, and how they changed the perspective of the set. Amazing. The props were fantastic too. Thumbs up for the Phantom of the Opera! And I feel kinda bad as I wasn't really interested in going at first, but kudos to the girl for dragging me there. If not for her 'surprise', I wouldn't have had such an experiance. To more musicals! (I hope)

Anyway, today while I was taking a dump, I had an epiphany. Before I talk about what it's about, I shall first start with how it came about. Recently I've been really worried. What's gonna happen in the future? Will I have sufficent funds for my future? A family? A shelter above my head? My parents in old age? My children? This brought me into fear. Fear for my future. My work don't pay much, and I spend loads on unneccessary stuff. This desperation brought me to people I used to be skeptical about. No, it isn't my pastor or church, but financial advisors and insurance. I realise that I have been stubborn all along and that these things are really quite important. I can grow my wealth (whatever I have), and I can plan for my future, and also my family's future. I believe its good if we start early. The earlier we start, the more prepared we'll be for the future.

OK, back to the dump, I was thinking. The meaning of life. Yes yes... The same old question. I know. But I was thinking, what is it to some people? Money? Finding the right job? Love? What is it? And then I thought, why should I question the meaning of life, or what it means to others? What does life mean to ME? I thought back and I went through many things that happened to me. My work, my future, my finances. Are those my greatest worries? Is that the meaning of life for me? But later I realised that all that I have done so far is to make myself happy now, and also for the future. My way of life is to be happy. I want myself to be happy. It is my aim in life. I want to enjoy this life while I can, and for my loved one to be happy too.

Ok, after all the verbal puke, another add on for the sake of puking. I just noticed today that my dad has more white hairs on the back of his head. He is getting old.