wasted mind, wasted thoughts

It's a wrap! Another full length feature completed. I like the feeling of working with the same small group of people for a month or so. You get enough time to know each another and talk loads of nonsense, and do stuff together.
Although I wake up really early in the morning every day for the past month (it's really quite a drag), I really love what I do! The rigging of lights, running here and there to get stuff, the time constraints on the lighting department's side, and the solutions we lay out for the situations which involve us to hide stuff, and to make sure they won't get seen when the film is screened on the big screen. I go home sticky, smelly, and sweaty everyday, which is really uncomfortable when you get stares from people walking pass you, or sitting beside you on the bus/train. But I still love my job. I already can't wait for the next job offer!

Last night was a night of youth and childhood innocence. After watching Man U being humiliated by Chelsea (I should have just gone to the movie.. I'm really sorry!), we decided to do it ourselves and to play football. If they can't score, we can! It was so super imprompto, I was kinda surprised at the turnout. Initially, some didn't want to, but by the powers of peer pressure, they had no choice but to relent. WAHA. Here, i gotta say a big sorry to the girlfriends of those dudes for being a major part in the peer pressure. We hardly played for half an hour before the lights went out. WHO SAID THAT LIMBANG LIGHTS WERE 24HRS?? Being the kids we were, we play in the dark though we could hardly see. We all felt 10 years younger, being brought back to the old sec school days where we just did crazy stuff and just have a good laugh after that. I've known these people for 11 years goddammit! Since we were kids!

I've got that feeling coming back to me again. Wendy maybe you could advice me, since you're in that situation as well? I'd like to say "I think so" too. Hmm.
Here's a song I believe everyone's gotta sing.

Beck - Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime

Charlene - I've never been to me

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

Oh, I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady......
I've been to paradise, (I've been to paradise)
But I've never been to me

(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to cryin' for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I've been to paradise, never been to me
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I've been to paradise, never been to me

Woah.
It has been tiring.
I sleep 3 - 4hrs a day. And lots of manual labour from work.
I am confident I'll get thinner, get some arm muscles, and have really huge bags for eyes.
I'm enjoying myself on set with the crew. It's fun working with people who have the same passion, and on top of that, lots of crap!

To further enlighten everyone, I've been working on an independent feature film called "Exposed!". Grab a copy of 8 days. I think it'll be featured or something. Or if you read xinmin newspaper, it's there. Anyway, the place we've been shooting at is this really OLD dilapidated HDB block. It's located right opposite Zouk. And it's an entirely different place altogether. The road is a divider between two opposites. One of youth, wealth, and nonchalance, and the other, of age, poverty, and of struggle. These are really people whom we hardly get to see on the streets. They live in a 1 room HDB flat with just the bare essentials. The place is filthy. And I really do mean it. There's faeces everywhere. Litter thrown down from windows, which nearly killed us once in a while, loads of old lonely people, mentally ill people, and poverty. Did I just mention Zouk was just opposite, together with Copthorne Hotel? The air is filled with staleness of life, and of course the faeces.
Time seem to stop moving when I'm in this world. The corridors are poorly lit and the atmosphere just makes you depressive. I seem to appreciate the things around me more now and feel that I'm not in a poor position at all. These people do need attention. Where on earth are the authorities!? It's infuriating just to think about these people in need, and the hotels and clubs just down the road.
I felt that I haven't been keeping my eyes open and that they have been kept closed for some time. People are not exposed to the things that are just right beneath their nose. So what if we see these issues on TV? It's just a television programme. But being there is totally different altogether. Go check it out for yourself.

Yes, my MIA has unofficially started.
Will be working for the month of April.
Please wait for May to come before we can have some fun.
Till May!