Friday, July 01, 2005
I know I seldom curse much, but this calls for a real vulgar one.
Motherfucking kan ni na bei pua cheebye.
I didn't get the grant from MDA.
Those motherfucking son of a bitches.
All the more I must work hard and show them what I'm made of in the future.
But first, how am I gonna settle semester 2 fees?
I think I'm really increasing the financial burden on my parents.
It's not helping that I'm not working this weekend.
It's not helping when I've got productions coming up and I need to pay production costs.
It's not helping when I've got to travel and eat everyday.
ARGH.
Just came back from War of the Worlds.
The sfx were stunning.
Spielberg is really quite a genius.
I so love Dakota Fanning. She's such a brilliant child actor.
The show is really quite plotless, so the sfx saved everything.
Well, the acting was good too.
Though plot is really thin, being all action and stuff, the story shows you how Cruise actually goes all out to protect his daughter whom he hasn't shown attention to for some time.
In the car home, Goose brought up a point that if this were to happen to us, what would we do?
It brings me back to newton, where mojo jojo was talking about the earthquakes and the tsunami.
I mentioned about getting laid before death, not being serious about the whole thing.
But mojo said that it would be the act of love that brings you to your loved one, and making love to her for the last time and treasuring it.
This time in the car, I was thinking about going to a loved one. The want to shield harm away. The want to protect.
My dad has my mom. My mom has my dad. They have each other.
So will it be unfillial of me to run away? I hope not.
But no one really knows what they'll do till such an awful event happens to me.
I was telling Tim about a death/accident list that I was thinking of doing up.
Thanks to Natasha for inspiring me to do one.
It should be close to the priority list, having important people in my life know first hand if I were to meet with an accident or sudden death.
I even asked the nurse today if they have a form for me to fill up regarding organ donations on death. I went to donate blood.. I didn't go there specifically to lay my insides on the table..
I don't know why thoughts of sudden death and accidents keep popping up in my mind recently.
Maybe it's a sign?
Well, I always believed in 'if you gotta go, you gotta go' so no point worrying.
And I'm not contradicting myself.
I just want the people close to me to be informed.
If something were to happen to them, I would want to know as well.
These are people I care about, I believe.
M's right, being alone gives me time to think.
Think about other things.
Being alone gives me space.
Being alone gives me time to do what SHOULD BE important.
I'm trying something I believe I've not done before.
I will try to live it.
Thank you.
Motherfucking kan ni na bei pua cheebye.
I didn't get the grant from MDA.
Those motherfucking son of a bitches.
All the more I must work hard and show them what I'm made of in the future.
But first, how am I gonna settle semester 2 fees?
I think I'm really increasing the financial burden on my parents.
It's not helping that I'm not working this weekend.
It's not helping when I've got productions coming up and I need to pay production costs.
It's not helping when I've got to travel and eat everyday.
ARGH.
Just came back from War of the Worlds.
The sfx were stunning.
Spielberg is really quite a genius.
I so love Dakota Fanning. She's such a brilliant child actor.
The show is really quite plotless, so the sfx saved everything.
Well, the acting was good too.
Though plot is really thin, being all action and stuff, the story shows you how Cruise actually goes all out to protect his daughter whom he hasn't shown attention to for some time.
In the car home, Goose brought up a point that if this were to happen to us, what would we do?
It brings me back to newton, where mojo jojo was talking about the earthquakes and the tsunami.
I mentioned about getting laid before death, not being serious about the whole thing.
But mojo said that it would be the act of love that brings you to your loved one, and making love to her for the last time and treasuring it.
This time in the car, I was thinking about going to a loved one. The want to shield harm away. The want to protect.
My dad has my mom. My mom has my dad. They have each other.
So will it be unfillial of me to run away? I hope not.
But no one really knows what they'll do till such an awful event happens to me.
I was telling Tim about a death/accident list that I was thinking of doing up.
Thanks to Natasha for inspiring me to do one.
It should be close to the priority list, having important people in my life know first hand if I were to meet with an accident or sudden death.
I even asked the nurse today if they have a form for me to fill up regarding organ donations on death. I went to donate blood.. I didn't go there specifically to lay my insides on the table..
I don't know why thoughts of sudden death and accidents keep popping up in my mind recently.
Maybe it's a sign?
Well, I always believed in 'if you gotta go, you gotta go' so no point worrying.
And I'm not contradicting myself.
I just want the people close to me to be informed.
If something were to happen to them, I would want to know as well.
These are people I care about, I believe.
M's right, being alone gives me time to think.
Think about other things.
Being alone gives me space.
Being alone gives me time to do what SHOULD BE important.
I'm trying something I believe I've not done before.
I will try to live it.
Thank you.
