wasted mind, wasted thoughts

Ok.
I have reached the ultimum and have come to a conclusion at last.
It's so drastic that I will have to skip watching 'Finding Neverland', and 'A Very Long Engagement', both shows I've waited so long to watch.

I WILL NOT SPEND MONEY ANYMORE.

Conditions are as follows:
1) I will not go out in any activities that require expenditure.
2) I will only start spending (WISELY) when I get a job and some income.
3) I will not even spend on things which include necessities i.e transport, food, beer, etc.
4) Borrowing and pity are not welcomed. (Pity includes treats and free gifts, but cigs and movies are exceptions for they are too dear to me)
5) Free car rides from friends are acceptable though.

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Why have I decided to treat myself this way?
I have realised how much I have relied on other people in my times of need.
Now I've reached the edge of the cliff.
Anymore and I will fall.
I have to stop bumming and stop thinking about how bad life is.
I need to realise that I got to do something other then to let time pass each day.
I will get a job even though I might not like it.
I need money to survive.
Welcome to the real world.