wasted mind, wasted thoughts

My hair is the colour of birdshit now.
It feels great!
I feel like a woman who just went for a bust enlargement.
Confident, motivated, proud, ah beng/ah lian.

Few things eating into me right now.
Poverty.
Bumming.
Education.
Future.
I figured that one small step might make a big change to my future.
And if that small step is a wrong step, it means a big change for the worse.
Now I'm at the point of no return.
I have to make a decision.
I've got age chasing after me, and I've got my youth to chase after.
I got to choose the right course to go into.
If only I won toto that day.
Tamade.