Wednesday, March 10, 2004
It's been a couple of days since i last stepped in here. I've got so many things to throw out from my head. Call it a "verbal diarrhoea", something I learned in OCS from my SSM. Let's just hope my brother isn't coming home that early today. It's because of him that kept me away from the rest of the world.
To start everything off, we won the Ironman Challange. Yes we did. It was an emotional moment. I can't explain the feeling that just exploded inside. I bet all of us felt that way. We are the champions.
Went to IDP with Kaiming yesterday at RELC to speak to some experts regarding education in Australia (sorry Eric my man, Melbourne isn't my cuppa.. Brisbane! Haha!). Took lotsa prospectus home (if that's what you call it or spell it). Had dinner after that then went to proceed home. On the bus I saw someone whom I wouldn't imagine I would see again. I saw the person of my interest 10 years ago. That would mean when I was 12. My first crush? I felt weird. I could feel adranaline just flowing through every inch of my body. She was with her boyfriend. Many thoughts ran through my mind. Should I say hi? Would she say hi? Would she recognise me? I bet she did. She stole a few glances and I looked back, holding some hope of her speaking to me. I remember trying very hard to get her contact when she moved. I did not get it, and I never heard from her since.
I know everyone would wonder, why the hell didn't I start the ball rolling by going up to her instead? I can tell everyone this and you all wouldn't believe it. I am actually quite an introvert. I've got no balls.
Not everyone knows me.
Oh yes, I don't blame anyone if they think of the incident as childish. They can stop reading anytime they want.
Today I got a lashing from my boss. To keep the story short, I will just post a question. Should I still think of others when I'm at the brink of losing my head? Sigh.. We shall see. I see myself standing on that fine line, waiting to fall on either side and I predict myself caring for my head being intact to the others. I tell myself I've done what I could, I console myself that it's ok, I do care for them. But when I give in, will they understand me? Why do I think this way? I wanted this seat right? Go on, complain, it won't change anything.
Final words.
Don't sacrifice too much. I'm going to throw the harsh fact in your face. Stop allowing yourself to be blatantly used. Why allow it to happen when you know you're gonna be used? When you say you wanna wake up, you better mean it. Promises don't mean anything if they're not kept.
Peace.
To start everything off, we won the Ironman Challange. Yes we did. It was an emotional moment. I can't explain the feeling that just exploded inside. I bet all of us felt that way. We are the champions.
Went to IDP with Kaiming yesterday at RELC to speak to some experts regarding education in Australia (sorry Eric my man, Melbourne isn't my cuppa.. Brisbane! Haha!). Took lotsa prospectus home (if that's what you call it or spell it). Had dinner after that then went to proceed home. On the bus I saw someone whom I wouldn't imagine I would see again. I saw the person of my interest 10 years ago. That would mean when I was 12. My first crush? I felt weird. I could feel adranaline just flowing through every inch of my body. She was with her boyfriend. Many thoughts ran through my mind. Should I say hi? Would she say hi? Would she recognise me? I bet she did. She stole a few glances and I looked back, holding some hope of her speaking to me. I remember trying very hard to get her contact when she moved. I did not get it, and I never heard from her since.
I know everyone would wonder, why the hell didn't I start the ball rolling by going up to her instead? I can tell everyone this and you all wouldn't believe it. I am actually quite an introvert. I've got no balls.
Not everyone knows me.
Oh yes, I don't blame anyone if they think of the incident as childish. They can stop reading anytime they want.
Today I got a lashing from my boss. To keep the story short, I will just post a question. Should I still think of others when I'm at the brink of losing my head? Sigh.. We shall see. I see myself standing on that fine line, waiting to fall on either side and I predict myself caring for my head being intact to the others. I tell myself I've done what I could, I console myself that it's ok, I do care for them. But when I give in, will they understand me? Why do I think this way? I wanted this seat right? Go on, complain, it won't change anything.
Final words.
Don't sacrifice too much. I'm going to throw the harsh fact in your face. Stop allowing yourself to be blatantly used. Why allow it to happen when you know you're gonna be used? When you say you wanna wake up, you better mean it. Promises don't mean anything if they're not kept.
Peace.
