Thursday, February 19, 2004
Today's Kaiming's birthday!!! Happy Birthday Kaiming! He's a good pal to have anytime. Meeting them for dinner at 7pm in town. I wonder where it'll be. We can't decide.
I've always have a problem with deciding. I like leaving the decision making to others. I guess I'm just lazy. Even when I hang out in town I've got this difficulty in knowing what to do. Maybe I don't know many places of interest in town? hmm.. I think I've got many people hissing at me because of this..
I'm afraid of decision making. But sometimes I know I gotta do it when I don't have a choice. Sounds rather surprising coming from an officer's mouth right? They're supposed to be good in decision making. I'm the odd one out. Maybe I'm not cut out to be one. I'm a freak case that managed to make it through OCS without being spotted. I just don't want to make a wrong decision and having the people involved unhappy. I don't want anyone to be unhappy because of me. That's selfish right? I let others take the responsibility and the blame if everyone's unhappy. Sigh.. I think I gotta do something about this.
Oh yah! And I hate to contradict other people's opinions. I find it hard to rebuke. I guess I'm a softie. Too ah gua. Wendy, what's that you said I was? Heterosexual or metrosexual? Well do tell me when you see me man. And tell the rest what it means. *gulp*
I think I better leave my home soon. I'm meeting them at 7!!!!
I've always have a problem with deciding. I like leaving the decision making to others. I guess I'm just lazy. Even when I hang out in town I've got this difficulty in knowing what to do. Maybe I don't know many places of interest in town? hmm.. I think I've got many people hissing at me because of this..
I'm afraid of decision making. But sometimes I know I gotta do it when I don't have a choice. Sounds rather surprising coming from an officer's mouth right? They're supposed to be good in decision making. I'm the odd one out. Maybe I'm not cut out to be one. I'm a freak case that managed to make it through OCS without being spotted. I just don't want to make a wrong decision and having the people involved unhappy. I don't want anyone to be unhappy because of me. That's selfish right? I let others take the responsibility and the blame if everyone's unhappy. Sigh.. I think I gotta do something about this.
Oh yah! And I hate to contradict other people's opinions. I find it hard to rebuke. I guess I'm a softie. Too ah gua. Wendy, what's that you said I was? Heterosexual or metrosexual? Well do tell me when you see me man. And tell the rest what it means. *gulp*
I think I better leave my home soon. I'm meeting them at 7!!!!
