wasted mind, wasted thoughts

Have been rather busy the past 2 weeks.
Nokia starlight cinema, some shocking incident, and booming for the project pilot finalist, 'The Section'.
Caught 'Skeleton Key' too at starlight cinema, though it's not released in Singapore yet. It's not bad a show... For a suspense thriller flick, I actually kinda enjoyed it.

Now, waking up everyday before the sun comes up is really a chore. And to be on location for 4 whole days under scorching sun, and I mean SCORCHING, is really bad for the skin. My mum says I look indian. So I've moved on from chinese, to malay, to indian. I should be the ambassador for Singapore. I am multi-racial. But despite the amount of hardwork, the heat, the waking ups in the mornings, the lack of sleep(9hrs in 3 days!), I still love doing production. It's so fun! I can't explain it, people might say I'm a sucker for punishment, but despite the harsh working conditions this time as compared to 'The Maid', I still love the job. Maybe I'm not doing PA this time, which explains why I am not suffering.. But booming is tough too! Well.. you gotta do it to know what I mean.

I hope more productions come my way. If 'The Section' wins the project pilot, they'll be shooting a whole season, and most probably hire back the same crew. I hope I would be on holidays or graduated by then... I'm loving it!

So tired..
Football in the morning, then going home to change and leave for work. This is so tiring. And in the morning I gotta go for tech recce with the crew. Shag!

Earlier in the morning during the match, I thought I was going to be paralysed for life. When I felt the impact in my back while going for a free header, my whole body went numb in pain. I kept wriggling around on the ground hoping to find a position where I wouldn't feel pain. I couldn't find the right position. I had to crawl out for the match to carry on. For those who don't know, I do have a back condition called scoliosis, which means having a curved spine. It's incurable as it comes with birth. It gets worse with age. Information thanks to unhelpful doctor from NUH years back. Scum. He just told me that it's BO PIAN, and told me to leave, somewhere along those lines. So here I am, cringing in pain, while waiting for the pain to subside. I know it will, but this time, it took so long, I thought it would stay for good. After it got away, I started the second half again. HA. It does sound like I'm putting a pistol to my head. Well, it's like the first time I scored in a match, although it was kinda scrapped, so I thought I would like to play more since I got all hyped up, though the body is weak from poor fitness too.

Working at starlight cinema is kinda boring. But well, there're plenty of sights to see, so I'm not complaining. But another boring part is.. I watch the same shows I've watched before! Dammit! I will try taking a nap tomorrow.

Am totally shagged from a hard day's worth of ball, photos, phones, and watched movies.
Peace out.

I'm 23, and I'm breaking out.
WHY!?
It's getting really bad. I need a dermathologist, or however you spell it. Or, I need a plastic surgeon (I see heads nodding in agreement).
I think I just need money. Can do plenty of things with it.
Sigh.

That's it.
I'm not gonna go for driving test again till next year.
The place is a fucking heck.
Yes, as you might have guessed, I failed again.
The previous 3 times are understandable..
But this time, it's all cock and bull story!
Just tell me if you don't want to give me that bloody licence!
Don't waste my time and money!
Knnbccb.

Help. I must pass my driving test tomorrow. I have already spent too much on it due to failing it FOUR times. It's 4am and I just came home from newton. I hope the tester wouldn't smell my alcoholic breath when I take the wheel tomorrow. If he does, and questions me, I will speed down to the nearest hospital and demand a breathalyser test, followed by a blood test to prove that I have less than 80mg of alcohol in my blood. I CAN DRIVE, GODDAMMIT!

It has been eons since I've been to newton for the green island with the dudes. Realised that school has taken away most of my pleasurable moments (but saved lotsa money for me, in a way). It has been a long time since 1)smoking my own pack of cigarettes. Yes I am scum. 2)drank substantial amount of beer over the night 3)enjoying a gig standing up, not sitting down. And I do realise that alcohol actually gives you courage, in the sense that when I heard screeching laughter from a neighbour while walking home along the corridor, I couldn't give a damn as to whether it was anything non-human. My mind worked this way; I heard the noise, 'Wah, freaky', looked, carried on walking, maintaining unfocused on my surroundings.

More alcohol tomorrow as it's free flow! Free dinner and free beer tomorrow for some production thingy. Yay. I love free beer. I must indulge. Chances like these don't come by too often.

Well, here's a song that's been left aside for sometime, but came back as I realised it's been a long time coming for the trips to newton, or to gigs, or to fountains of beer. Here's to 'The Delays', and to mojo for this inspirational piece.
*Hiccup*

The Delays - Long Time Coming
Tore it up and walked away
Why'd you wanna go do that for?
Threw your Lego in
The lake
Why'd you wanna go do that for?

And you're a long time coming
A long time
Coming home
Do you see me reeling off the lines
I've seen your, I've seen your
Eyes

How can you grow old
You were my triumph?
How can you grow old
You were my
Triumph?

Turned your face into the squall
Why'd you wanna go do that for?
You carved
Your name into the wall
Why'd you wanna go do that for?

And you're a long time
Coming
A long time coming home
Do you see me reeling off the lines
I've seen your, I've
Seen your eyes

How can you grow old
You were my triumph?
How can you grow old
You were
My triumph?

I am sick.
It sucks to be sick.
You can't go out and have fun.
You gotta put away all your appointments.
I already prep-ed myself mentality to catch a gig and to head down to poptart.
Why get sick now!?

So what did I do the whole of Saturday with my disease?
Caught Romance of the 3 kingdoms.
Watched a bit of Man U vs Arsenal 98/99 FA Cup Semi-finals.
Man U was really power then!
Channel surf more and sleep.
I'm gonna force myself to leave the house to watch ball later at the snake's.
Hope I can survive the trip there later.

Ok. This is a song that the Obs covered during their Blank Walls gig at the Esplanade Recital Studio.
Cool stuff!

David Bowie - Ashes to Ashes
Do you remember a guy that’s been
In such an early song
I’ve heard a rumour from ground control
Oh no, don’t say it’s true

They got a message from the action man
I’m happy, hope you’re happy too
I’ve loved all I’ve needed love
Sordid details following

The shrieking of nothing is killing
Just pictures of jap girls in synthesis and i
Ain’t got no money and I ain’t got no hair
But I’m hoping to kick but the planet it’s glowing

Ashes to ashes, funk to funky
We know major tom’s a junkie
Strung out in heaven’s high
Hitting an all-time low

Time and again I tell myself
I’ll stay clean tonight
But the little green wheels are following me
Oh no, not again
I’m stuck with a valuable friend
I’m happy, hope you’re happy too
One flash of light but no smoking pistol

I never done good things
I never done bad things
I never did anything out of the blue, woh-o-oh
Want an axe to break the ice
Wanna come down right now

Ashes to ashes, funk to funky
We know major tom’s a junkie
Strung out in heaven’s high
Hitting an all-time low

My mother said to get things done
You’d better not mess with major tom
My mother said to get things done
You’d better not mess with major tom
My mother said to get things done
You’d better not mess with major tom
My mother said to get things done
You’d better not mess with major tom

'Be with me, my beloved love
that my smile may never fade.'

Now that's the true quote from 'Be with me'.
I watched it again and it touched me once more.
Such an awesome show.
I really REALLY recommand it to everyone.
No money to watch, go sell something to get $7 to catch it on a weekday.
It's such a blast even when I'm catching it for the second time.
My hair still stand during the touching parts.
The power scenes still remain power scenes in my head.
Have I said it's an awesome show!
ARGH! It's really fantastic!
Go read my previous post.
I did a short review on it, so I don't want to repeat it here.
It's an awesome show.

Watched Red Eye too.
Thank God I watched it for free, due to some sneakiness...
Bad. Don't watch it even if it's free.
But good acting from the male lead though.
He's quite handsome eh?
5.5/10 (0.5 goes to that guy's acting, he did the scarecrow in batman too)

Some things I don't understand about Singapore movie goers.
They have no bloody heart.
I don't understand why people laugh at parts where I don't think is funny, but instead is heart wrenching, or sad.
What the f*ck?
AND, they must comment on every single bloody scene, and predict what's coming up next out loud for the whole cinema to hear.
WHY? WHY DO THEY DO THESE?

Lyrics time.
Simple words, simple sentences.
But powerful, it struck me.
Wow. Enjoy

Keane - Walnut Tree
Once there was a great storm,
Pushed my head beneath the waves,
I was gone.

Underneath the walnut tree,
Where you said you'd wait for me,
And I waited a long, long time

I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time.

Why, why do I come here?
Seeking out the memories I hold in,
'Cause you put your spell on me,
Made me live in memory,
And im frozen in just the wrong time.

I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time,
I waited a long, long time.

And now it's my turn to get booby trapped by a person who blogs only when the US decides to help New Orleans, or when Singapore's president is no longer Nathan.

Here are my "Three random facts about you your friends didn't know about":

1) I used to keep my teeth that dropped out in a container when I was REALLY young. They kinda stink and I thought that they would be worth keeping. They were kept in a van houten box with my EPL cards and dragonball cards and whatnots. The van houten box is still around...

2) When I was in sec school, I carved the words 'Tian Cai' (Genius) on my desk, always picturing myself as Sakuragi from Slamdunk, who did the same thing. At that same age, I played basketball, also trying to imitate sakuragi by playing the 'lan ban' (rebounder or whatever you call it). Only later I realised, I'm not a genius after all as I was always getting last in class and went to a polytechnic.

3) I study cinematography as a skill. I don't intend to be a DP for life. I do want to direct my own short films. Cinematography will help me as a director in the future. When I get older, hopefully I can move on as a dp, a director, then a producer. But first, I start from the smallest. Grip, camera grip, or film reloader.

Now the best part.
Arrowing.
The 5 of you who are arrowed, go on and spread the love.

1) Yap
2) Joe
3) Shu
4) Natasha
5) Rachel

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Now that the nonsense is over, it's lyrics time once more.
My goodness, I didn't know this was a sad song till I read the lyrics.
It's so upbeat and jumpy, it masks the sad truth behind it.
I bet you didn't know either.
Sigh. So sad and true song.

Simply Red - Stars
Anyone who ever held you
Would tell you the way I’m feeling
Anyone who ever wanted you
Would try to tell you what I feel inside
The only thing I ever wanted
Was the feeling that you ain’t faking
The only one you ever thought about
Wait a minute can’t you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I I feel you
I hope you comprehend

For the man who tried to hurt you
He’s explaining the way I’m feeling
For all the jealousy I caused you
States the reason why I’m trying to hide
As for all the things you taught me
It sends my future into clearer dimensions
You’ll never know how much you hurt me
Stay a minute can’t you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I I feel you
I hope you comprehend

Too many hearts are broken
A lover’s promise never came with a maybe
So many words are left unspoken
The silent voices are driving me crazy
After all the pain you caused me
Making up could never be your intention
You’ll never know how much you hurt me
Stay can’t you see that i

I wanna fall from the stars
Straight into your arms
I I feel you
I hope you comprehend

Manic Street Preachers - A Design For Life
Libraries gave us power
Then work came and made us free
What price now for a shallow piece of dignity

I wish I had a bottle
Right here in my dirty face to wear the scars
To show from where I came

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life
A design for life
A design for life
A design for life

I wish I had a bottle
Right here in my pretty face to wear the scars
To show from where I came

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life
A design for life
A design for life
A design for life

We don’t talk about love we only want to get drunk
And we are not allowed to spend
As we are told that this is the end

A design for life
A design for life
A design for life
A design for...
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I just realised another fact about myself.
I can't study on Sundays, especially after soccer in the morning.
I will TRY to read something but I realise I could only endure at most 15mins of the torture.
I remember starting at 3pm.
And what seemed like an eternity after reading a few pages was just 15mins!
My eyes couldn't hold up any longer, and my head was telling me to take a dive onto the bed.
Of course, I relented, as the temptation was too strong.
I was reading off Koobi just beside the bed! What do you think!?
Of course I fell into temptation! I'm only human..
Before knocking out, I put my alarm to 430, giving myself 1hr of rest.
You guessed it, I comatosed till 715 when my parents woke me up to have dinner.
Edwin ah edwin, never, NEVER, tell yourself you can study after Sunday soccer.
It's all just a lie if you tell yourself you can do it.
But maybe I should attribute the knocking out to the pointless rubbish that I have to read.
Go figure, 'The new novel has no logic, but has own logic'.
There is plenty more, call me if you'd like to have a good laugh.

Oh no. School holidays are coming.
I have to get a job.
Monday, shooting in soundstage to finish up the 16mm showreel + study.
Tuesday, shooting stills for school event, and Film as Art final test. Remember, 'No logic, but has own logic'.
Wednesday, pending + hardcore dvd watching.
Thursday, pending, or movie watching depending on the boss.
Friday, pending + real hardcore dvd watching.
Saturday, pending.
Sunday, play ball(hopefully).
I hope I can get the job by Wednesday, which explains 'pending'.
I don't want to spend my life selling handphones!
Maybe I should try shops that rent dvds out. I can earn money, and watch shows at the same time. How bout that!
Have a nice day.
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Stereophonics - Have a nice day
San Francisco Bay
Past pier thirty nine
Early p.m.
Can't remember what time
Got the waiting cab
Stopped at the red light
Address, unsure of
But it turned out just right

It started straight off
"Coming here is hell"
That's his first words
We asked what he meant
He said "where ya' from?"
We told him our lot
"When ya' take a holiday
Is this what you want?"

So have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day

Lie around all day
Have a drink to chase
"Yourself and tourists, yeah
That's what I hate"
He said "We're going wrong
We've all become the same
We dress the same ways
Only our accents change

So have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day

Swim in the ocean
That be my dish
I drive around all day
And kill processed fish
It's all money gum
No artists anymore
You're only in it now
To make more, more, more

So have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day

Have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day
Have a nice day

My beloved red love

I'd like to say hello again,
to bring you out and feel you.
I'm sorry I left you by the corner,
I love you but guess there ain't the passion.
I want to pick you up again,
to try to work things out.
But I got loads of excuses lined up,
you've got to wait till I exhaust them all.
I don't feel the chemistry I once had,
when I held you everyday.
You have been so ever patient,
so sorry I can't find the time.
I hope we'll be close once more,
my now forsaken red love.

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Rambled out something as I feel I've neglected her.
My poor Epiphone SG! So sorry I left you in a corner!
Just felt that I've been neglecting music playing for donkey years.
After watching Morphy play at the Esplanade just now, I look at myself and give a big sigh.
Actually, I feel that way after going for gigs.
I once was full of love and drive towards music making.
Now, it's just music listening.

And, I'm reminded of the few places I hang out in Singapore as I bumped into a group of people I thought I wouldn't bump into.
What a coincidence...
I'm limited to school, Al Azhar, Esplanade, Marina Square, Newton, Bt Timah market, Limbang basketball court, Lot 1, and some other west side malls and coffeeshops.
I think I don't have that much of an adventurous spirit in me after all.

Now I leave you with a picture of my beloved red love whom I neglected in a corner collecting dust. (Well, it's not exactly her, but looks like. Mine is Epiphone, the picture is a Gibson.)

Went for The Observatory's 'Blank Walls' gig at the esplanade recital studio.
Not bad, but the Alliance Francaise one still stays my favourite.
They did a cover of the Bowie song, 'Ashes to ashes', which I think was great!
Though when Leslie started singing, I found it weird as I was used to hearing Bowie on the CD.
Good set.
But it's a very sad thing to be poor.
I wanted to buy the album, but couldn't.
I wanted to buy Leslie's solo project, but couldn't.
I had to borrow money to buy the t-shirt as it was limited.
It's a beauty.
In dark brown with this exquisite artistic design on the side with the title of the album.
People, go get the album.
It's really fresh. It's a 'purifying' experiance to listen to new stuff, apart from the things we hear everyday.
And the album design!
I won't tell much, but go buy it and you'll understand.
WOW. Amazing I tell you.

Oh, Comex is cool!
Lotsa cool gadgets at good offers.
Mac stuff going cheap too, but watch for the ibooks, they are the older batch, which explains the cheap price.
Ipods going for $398(!?!?!?).
Nikon D70s going for $1999 with loads of freebies worth about $400+.
1gb Thumbdrive sandisk titanium going for $155.
Argh. Why am I poor?
Personal note: Is comex selling technology, or flesh?
The amount of scantily clad ladies actually are quite amazing.
This proves that sex sells.
Booths like Nikon and Samsung trust this method with all their heart.
So to sum it up, go check out Comex for the tech factor, and the chick factor.
Another plus point is the food fair right beside it.
Good place to go to after getting hungry from all the tech and meat.

Watch the making of 'The Maid'.
Sunday 1pm, Channel U.

Oh I forgot!
Happy birthday Huizhen!
Updated writewrite too just for you.

Hahaha.
Got this off my friend's nick on msn.
'Love is to trust, sex is to thrust'.
Funny!

Am embarking on my guerilla film making tomorrow with my trusty buds.
Lets see what equipment I'll be using.
A DP kit(Film changing bag, light meter, chroma meter, measuring tape, slate, white board marker), SRII Arricam 16mm, 1 can of Kodak 250D film, Miller tripod, ND and 80 and 85 filters, reflector boards, a skateboard, a mercedes, three brains.
Nothing else! Urm, there're other stuffs but they're insignificant.
May the gods be with me!
Hurray for run and gun!
Hopefully something nice comes out of it and I can make a showreel out if it...
But chances are, it's a throw away thing.
Pray the sun to be nice and sunny with big winds for kite flying!

Anyway, had our film chopped to pieces today by a c*nt.
Oh well, what to do, he's always right.
And I look down on art.
It's so fucking ambigious, there's no pin pointing on what's art anyway.
I can just spit on a piece of paper and call it art.
If I'm famous, i can just film a snail crawling, call it art, and the whole world will give me a standing ovation.
What the hell. It's quite infuriating.
Now, we're not famous, yet, so what we do gets criticism from them because they're stupid enough not to understand it when everyone else does.
Ah, I'm contradicting myself again.
So what is art!?
ACKKKKK!