wasted mind, wasted thoughts

Such a sad song.. But so real, it bites.

Gary Jules - Mad World
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world

Woke up today to nothing new, again.
Been stuck to the computer since I woke up.
At times just starting at the screen, looking for something to do.
At times chatting aimlessly till friends sign off.

It rained again today.
And it just ended.
There wasn't a silver lining.
A cool breeze enters the window where I just had a smoke.
Everything seems so peaceful after the rain.
No one on the streets because of the rain.
As I look down, the view almost looked like a still portrait, or a photo taken with my eyes.
It sets me to wonder how things have been going for me the past days, weeks, months, years.
Somehow it coincides with the view from my window, still, motionless, and lifeless.
But strange enough, it has been colourful and vibrant.
So I can portray my life as a picture/photograph.
Though motionless, it captures the essence from a chosen view with its colours and vibrance.

I want it to be a motion picture, a moving visual, a film.
Maybe that's why I truly enjoy watching all those films.
But aren't films made with many shots caught on reel?
So I musn't forget that though my life is like a picture right now, in time to come, it may become a film, constituting the many still motionless pictures I once thought useless and forgettable.

Argh.
Is it me or am I just being emo from boredom?

Oh, rainy days are here to stay.
The sound of raindrops falling on my window seem to be keeping time with the rhythm from my typing.
The gloomy atmosphere, the dark clouds, the unlit bedroom.
Sudden moodiness welling up.

"To all those who seek, happiness keep, a record of all your sadness"

A line I picked up from the song 'Time of Rebirth'.
Happened to be listening to The Observatory along with the current moodiness, gloominess and darkness.
It seems that the songs only amplified the effect rather than to sooth it.
Guess what's the next song that comes alone.
'Waste Your Life'.

I've been bumming for like coming 2 weeks?
I feel out of sorts without anything to do.
And the loneliness is so hard to bear.
Friends studying for whatever's coming along, others working, others with their girlfriends.
I'm left behind without exams, work, or a girlfriend.

I am a good for nothing.
But the least I can do now, is to strive not to be one.

I totally enjoyed resfest04 although it was only a short one.
I must thank yanni so much for informing me of this event!
This is an MTV directed by Jonathan Glazer.
I so loved it when I watched it(though I badly needed to pee), both the music and the MTV.
He is an absolute genius, bursting with talent and creativity. No doubts about it.

Richard Ashcroft - Song For The Lovers
I spend the night
Yeah looking for my insides in a hotel room
Waiting for you
Were gonna make it tonight
Yeah something in the air tells me the time is right so we better get on

Dj, play a song for the Lovers tonight
Please, play a song for the lovers tonight

Don't wanna wait
Lord ive been waiting all my life but I'm too late again
I know but I was scared
Cant you seeI'm moving like a train into some foreign land I aint
Got a ticket for this ride but I will

Oh, play a song for the Lover tonight
Dj, play a song for the Lover tonight
Dj, play a song for the Lovers tonight
Please play a song for the Lovers tonight

Cant stop looking back no no
One more for the lovers
O brother wont you lend a hand I'm alone in a room
And Im waiting for love
I dont know when this dreams gonna stop
But I'm telling you friend I dont want to get up
But I'm telling you friend I dont want to get up

The Delays - Wanderlust

Can you hear that knocking in your soul
No, you don't listen
Can you hear that knocking overload
No, you don't listen
Never see the high beyond the low
No wonder, you lay twitching
Do you share the rush to be alone
Come over, we'll go missing

We'll go where there's no snow
We'll go and they won't know
Just please don't give me your word

Can you hear that knocking in your soul
No wonder, you don't listen
We'll go where there's no snow
Just please don't give me your word
Just please don't give me your word

All that matters is the music tonight
Just please don't give me your,
All that matters is the music tonight,
But you don't listen

So, we'll go run and run
Until we start again
Yea we'll we'll run run and run away
Yea well, we'll run and run
Until we start again
Yea we'll run run and run Away